Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Slept in my house alone last night for the first time in a week and honestly, it felt good. Makiah was faithfully lying by my side and doggy dreaming away. She started breathing heavy, legs twitching and then suddenly woke up, eyes alert and looking right at me to make sure I was okay. I can't help but think that that's maybe how she was awakened last Sunday. We are glued at the hip now - and I think I'm going to get therapy dog papers so she can go with me any where I go. What an amazing little dog.

It's nice to have the quiet right now - some time to really think about my Bubba and adjusting to life without him. I stopped taking sleeping pills so I can remember my dreams and had a good one the other night.

I opened more cards from Sunday - thank you to everyone who came, again. It means so much to me to be surrounded by people with so much love. It will help me get through.


Andysparks1 said...

Hi Jen,

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I cannot immagine what your feeling right now and the stength that you are possessing. A young life but sounds like a young life that was living his dream. Please know that we are thinking about you.

Sarah Hammer & Andy Sparks

Anonymous said...


I am constantly thinking about you. How your are holding in there like the champ that you are is simply amazing. You are a very strong women physically and emotionally, Ryan was so lucky to have you as his wife. I am sending you love from afar and hope to see you soon. Love Erin (Tyson's Sister)

Anonymous said...

Again, I am so sorry for your loss. Ryan sounds like a great guy! I wish I could have met him. I can't image what you are going through and am lost for words. You are a great person Jen. I knew that the first time that I met you just this year. You are a champion and incredibly talented on that bike. Please continue to turn left. I wish you nothing but the best and hope that you get through this with family and friends. It sounds that you have a lot of love around you. If you ever need anything or are in NY please contact me. I would love to see you again. All of the NY riders that I introduced you to at Nationals send there best to you and your family and were very sad to hear the news. Whatever you do at this time stay around people that keep you happy. It is very important.

Andrew LaCorte